I sort of anticipated that tomorrow would be bad, but today. . . today has been not good. Unexpectedly not good. After about my fourth cry, I finally went outside and swam despite the weather (what's a little rain when you're in a swimming pool, right? it's just the lightning you've got to watch out for) and finally managed to get away from my relentless brain. And then getting out of the pool, I thought, "damn, I'm just so sad, I really need to call Mom, she always..." and then there I was again.
There ought to be a word other than "anniversary." Anniversary sounds too positive, too festive. Anniversaries are for celebrations. But I can't figure out what the word would be.
I'm sorry about your mom. My dad died in 2006. I know it's hard.
ReplyDeleteOT - I received A Gift of Thought but I'm having trouble with my kindle app right now. I wanted you to know, I appreciate it, I just haven't been able to read it yet.
Take care of yourself. (((hugs)))
Thanks, Judy, I appreciate the sympathy! Let me know if you need me to send another file or a file In a different format. I'm in Seattle right now, without my computer, so I couldn't do it until I get home, but I could send you a PDF or ePub if you needed.
DeleteI lost my mom on the 30th of August 1999 after a two year bout with cancer. This wasn't fair and I am never going to be ok about it - that is my choice. The pain does fade over the years and I am grateful for a better relationship with my dad which was not going to happen while Mom - the favoured parent was around. I feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Cat. I'm sorry for your loss, too -- losing a parent is so hard.
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